Archive for June, 2012

Day #75 – 29 June 2012


Both my double periods with my two classes were gone—AGAIN! T.T

It was a hectic and exhausting day. Although it’s Friday, I had to stay back after school to complete the students’ costumes for the march past, and for march past practice too. :/

The assembly itself finished at about 9.15 am because they had the prize-giving ceremony for those sports events that had already been carried out. Then, I was called to help Pn. Zaimie because Sun and I were involved in Persiapan Tempat for the VIPs at the spectators’ stands.

We had to clean the place, get the sofa, carpet, tables, potted plants, decorate them. And thankfully, there were students around whom we could ask for help to carry the furniture for us. Otherwise, we wouldn’t have been able to do it ourselves! God bless these students who offer help every time they see us. (I realized that the Form 1 boys are just very stubborn, playful and unhelpful. You practically have to beg them for help to carry tables, chairs etc. =.= But the older boys are much more willing to help a teacher. So I appreciate these boys who came to our aid so quickly 😀 We should not take them for granted.)

When that was done, I had to stay and help the march past kids. Then there were things to take care of for the students’ costumes. We had to cut and stick ribbons and crepe paper on 30+ students’ tracksuits, and print and cut out and paste double-sided tape on the R’s (for Rajawali/Robin Hood—our theme! xD) And would you believe it, the entire day was already gone! @.@

When Cikgu Zana (thank GOD for her) and I were done with the costumes for the kids, we headed down to the field to help out with the march practice. They were still practising although it was close to 5.00 pm. They had to work really hard on the formation, because they weren’t entirely ready yet :/ But thankfully, Cikgu Mazira and Mr. Ng were with them to help while Cikgu Zana and I were working on the costumes.

They went on till past 5.00 pm, closing in to 6.00 pm! The poor kids! 😦 They must have been really really tired and exhausted and….touchy. They were even beginning to quarrel among themselves—which is a sign that they’ve had enough. We were all tired and thirsty and hungry, even. I really felt sorry for the kids. They have been practising almost all day. :/

At the moment, Rajawali is last in the latest House position. We’re so far behind that, I think even winning the Perbarisan competition, and maybe the Hiasan Khemah one too, might not be enough to make us overall winner. 😦

But that doesn’t mean we’re not gonna do our best tomorrow! 😀

Tomorrow is D-Day. I have a feeling that I’m gonna be DEAD after tomorrow (figuratively, of course) because, not only am I involved in the persiapan tempat VIP without our head (Pn. Zaimie won’t be around) and the march past teachers one person short (Cikgu Zana will not be coming either! T.T), they have also put my name down as one of the members for the Teachers’ Sukaneka event (they pushed me into it, and I couldn’t say no :/)

Like I said, I think I’m gonna be DEAD after the program tomorrow!

Plus, I have to be in school by 6.30 am!!!! (Cikgu Mazira’s orders T.T)

Exhausted, after coming back to my room at 6.15 pm today. 😦 I have to keep reminding myself, “It’s just for one more week. One more week. One more week.” @.@


Day #74 – 28 June 2012

We had the rehearsal for Sports Day today.

Which I didn’t know meant having to go down to the muddy field for the perbarisan and some of the track events—so I wore my baju kurung and covered flats. =.=

They were covered in bits of wet grass and mud! T.T

Anyway, we had the rehearsal right up till 10.00 am in the morning, then the kids had their recess till 10.30 am. According to the announcement earlier that morning during assembly, only the students involved in the events had to assemble at the spectator stands at the field for their events, and the rest were supposed to be in class. Which meant that there should be regular P&P going on, right?

I had two double periods with 1 Best and 1 Buck, so I was ready to go for class at 10.30 am.

Then a voice came over the speakers and instructed ALL students to go down to the field—no one is allowed in the classrooms.

WHAT??? @.@ *confused*

I guess there wouldn’t be any classes then :/

We had quite a number of events today, and I had forgotten how fun it is to watch it, and to cheer for your House. It feels like ages since the last time. What was worse, I was never a fan of sports (still am not =.=) but I guess I can better appreciate sports now, more than I did when I was in school. I never saw the point in Sports Day. But I guess now, I can see that it’s actually a lot of fun, and certainly instills good sportsmanship in students 😀

I truly admire those students who were running the long distance runs, like the 1500 m. My goodness, it is so tough! Really requires a lot of stamina. I would literally die running the 1500 m.

And it was really nice to see students cheering for even the ones who came in last, because they struggled to finish the race. I mean, isn’t that what it’s all about? Never giving up? I think those students should be very very proud of themselves for finishing the race. It’s a feat, in itself. Sometimes, in our competitiveness (as spectators) we tend to forget how tough it is to play out there. We get frustrated and angry when they lose. But if it were us in their shoes, would we be able to do the same, or any better? @.@

(Suddenly reminds me of the Euro 2012 that’s going on right now—don’t we scream curses at the players when they don’t do well? I mean, seriously, can we do better? >.< We should cheer them on for making it that far!)

Oh, and the tarik tali event was sooooo exciting to watch! Ten big guys on each team, fighting against a rope! Simple enough, but is soooo difficult! I saw the poor students, sweat pouring down their foreheads and backs, and their hands chaffed from the friction. Only later they “remembered” to let the students coat their hands with flour/powder.

Ahaha, I couldn’t help myself cheering for Rajawali! I think if I were a student, I would be cheering and screaming even louder! I even considered going right down to the grounds to watch the fight up-close, as most of the students were doing (and some teachers too, screaming themselves hoarse for their respective teams!) but…… my baju kurung? Was only a split-second thought before I knew it was a bad bad idea =.=

Anyway, today’s events ended with the tarik tali. And because of the events, I missed my 2 periods with 1 Best completely. And then I only had like, 20 minutes with 1 Buck left. But since I had march past practice with the kids, I didn’t enter my class :/ Yikes.

But the march past group really needs the practice. They’re not that uniform yet, and they hadn’t even thought out the formation! Oh, dear. I don’t know if we’re gonna have enough time! And their costumes aren’t done yet either! @.@

Tomorrow, they’re asking if they can start practising in the morning for the entire day. I’m not exactly thrilled with the idea, though :/want to enter my classes—another two double periods with my two classes. But at the same time, I feel that our Rajawali marchers really need help :/

Besides, so many students are involved in one thing or another that I wonder how many students will be left in the class without any involvement in Sports Day. We’ll see how things go tomorrow. I have a feeling that classes are gonna be disrupted anyway. Even if I enter class, how am I gonna teach when so many aren’t in? I’ll have to repeat the lesson then! =.=

Dilemma. :/

Day #73 – 27 June 2012

A very tiring day, today. :/

Had sports in the morning again. I’m not really a fan of this alternative schedule—leaves you exhausted by the middle of the day!

I was a little annoyed this morning because everything was so disorganized. I was involved in the march past for Rajawali, but the kids were stuck at the assembly grounds for almost an hour because the teachers had not settled a lot of things. They didn’t know what events were on for today, who were the students selected for each event, they hadn’t prepared the running numbers etc.

I thought all this was supposed to have been settled last week? :/ So we wasted a precious hour just waiting! The march past kids could’ve started earlier. Sighhhh.

Anyway, I believe they improved more this time round. But some were still too playful and not taking the training seriously. But I also believe the commander plays a huge role in providing the right “spirit” or semangat to march, you know?

The teachers were busy figuring out what the students are gonna wear, their costumes, their cheers etc. Thankfully, Cikgu Mazira got the Form Six students to help with all that. They’ve got some interesting ideas for our mascot and theme, but I don’t wanna spoil the surprise just yet! Will reveal all come Saturday! 😉

And I’m also thankful for Cikgu Zanariah. She’s been with me, watching over the march past kids. We were the only two who stayed back with them yesterday 😦 But we couldn’t really help much. Just kinda helped to keep an eye on them and let them know when they’re marching on the wrong foot or something 😛

Today, I had 3 relief classes too. 1 Perd, 4 Gem (yikes!) and 5 Sau.

I thought I could do the same activity with the classes. Unfortunately, that didn’t really work out. I had the first period after their half hour recess after sports in 1 Perd. When I went in, almost half the class hadn’t come in yet. I made them clean the class a little, and before you know it, it’s only 20 minutes till my relief ends. So I just waited in with them, made sure they were all in class and not wandering around. I was quite worried to see 2 Gem on the opposite building all walking around. There was barely anyone in the class! @.@ I wonder where they all went, and who their teacher was. :/

I got 4 Gem, thankfully, during a program. There was a talk, organized by Gatorade, I think, on Dehydration. Which I feel is rather apt, since they’re all so busy training for Sports Day and sweating buckets. Rehydrating the body is important. But they were of course promoting their isotonic drink, Gatorade. I concur that rehydration is important, especially after sports. But I always believe that the best liquid for that purpose is plain water. Not some isotonic drink, non-carbonated or not. Water is the best, and the healthiest. Some of the students really don’t drink enough—they don’t even have their own water bottles! @.@

Anyway, for 4 Gem, I only had to bring them to the hall for the program. And that’s when the funniest thing happened! xD

I went to 4 Gem to make sure all the students were in, then escort them to the hall for the one-and-a-half-hour program. If you remember, 4 Gem is an all-boys class. Somehow, they joined up with the boys from 4 Best and, with me in the middle, it looked rather like a little girl (me lar) surrounded by a bunch of big boys. =.=

I don’t know who first suggested it, but someone said, “Wah, Cikgu, kita macam jadi bodyguard Cikgu lar!” and I was like, “What bodyguards? If a robber came, you’d be the first to run, wouldn’t you?” 😛 Then, I suppose it became fun to pretend that I was the VIP and they were my bodyguards—all 20+ big boys!

They walked in front of me, beside me and behind me—I was literally surrounded by them! Then they started calling out, “Bagi laluan! Bagi laluan! VIP nak lalu ni!” Other students actually turned and stared, and they would see a tiny me surrounded by the biggest, baddest Form 4 boys!

It was embarrassing…..but ridiculously funny at the same time! xD

And would you believe it? They actually carried on like that the ENTIRE way from their classroom to the Inspirasi Hall. OMG, I think quite a number of students actually saw them paving the way for me to go to the hall! =.=

I couldn’t help laughing, seriously. It was kinda funny. I know I should’ve told them to cut it out. But it was just harmless fun. And it was amusing 😛 Although, it was rather embarrassing too :/

Still, it was the FUNNIEST moment, ever! xD

Until they reached the hall and very quietly went out the side doors! I had to call them all back =.= Kantoi!

5 Sau was uneventful. There were only 6 students in the class because the rest were all out helping their House teachers with the Tent decorations and preparations for this Saturday. So I just sat in and marked some of my students’ books. Pretty boring half an hour before I let them off.

Thennnnn, we were supposed to have march practice after school ended at 4.00pm until 5.00pm. But I was not informed that the students had started practice at 2.50pm! @.@ Apparently, there was an announcement but I didn’t hear it :/ Anyway, when I was done with relief, I went round searching for our green-clad members, but couldn’t find them! >.<

Later, I found one of the girls, who told me that they had had a one-hour practice already, and had all gone home =.=

Wow, thanks for informing me, kids! >.<

Sometimes, I think students think they run the show too much. When teachers put them in charge, they feel that they answer to no one else. Which is wrong! Would it be too much to ask that they at least inform the teacher about what they plan to do? No one came and told me anything! And I looked silly walking around school asking random students if they’ve seen the Rajawali march past kids =.=

In addition, they aren’t supposed to be having practice during P&P time, especially without a teacher. >.<

Is it me, or have times really changed? =.=

Day #72 – 26 June 2012

Today is my first Tuesday of the new timetable and I am completely and utterly……………………..


Yup, I don’t have any classes today. Don’t ask me why; they arranged it that way. And you know what’s even better?

I don’t have classes on Wednesdays either.

Yes, which means I only teach 3 days a week! But that also means that 2 of my days are kinda packed :/ 2 double periods back-to-back! @.@ Tiring!

Anyway, no classes for the entire day also means that there’s bound to be more relief classes handed to you =.=

I was given 5 Gem, 1 Perd and 1 Best today.

5 Gem was alright. But it was an awkward period where they are just after PE, so some are missing cos they’re still on their way back, some are changing in the bathrooms etc. What can I do but just wait for them to all come back to class? And since they just trickled in, I didn’t make them get up to wish me. And I didn’t really do anything with them.

I was actually planning on playing a game with them. But since some of them were busy playing checkers and others…..looked busy, I just sat in the class and chatted with some of the boys. (Okay, I know I’m not supposed to do that, but they didn’t seem like in the mood for a game either =.=)

Then the boys somehow got to asking me about Chinese. Like how to say, “My name is…….” in Chinese! I am still rather surprised by their interest (and curiosity) towards everything Chinese. I think it’s because, to them, everything and anything Chinese is remotely foreign to them, and strange, and new! So they are very interested to learn things. They asked me how to say, “What are you doing?” and “Have you eaten?” in Mandarin, which I taught them. I just thought that, their interest to learn, albeit a language that I’m not exactly teaching nor very fluent in, should be encouraged. So I taught them a few phrases, which they enjoyed making fun of each other about. 😛

1 Perdana was kinda noisy, so I decided to play the game with them. Simple Word Formation: give them a long word, like Characterisation then ask them to form as many words as possible from the letters in the word under 3 conditions: 1) the word must be at least 2 letters, 2) no plurals eg. cat/cats, and 3) no names. The group with the most number of words, wins!

Surprisingly, they were quite cooperative, and most of them participated well. Only 2 refused to play, saying that they wanted to do their own work instead. FINE. :/

Anyway, they were all quite good! At the end, I wished I could give ALL of them sweets as prize, but I didn’t have enough 😦 Still, I wanted to encourage even those who did not win (they were getting a little competitive! @.@) by writing down the words that I had identified were good and that some groups had that all the others didn’t. So even though they didn’t win, each group had a couple of words that other groups did not find, which is a GOOD JOB! 😀

Still, I felt bad for not being able to give the rest something. Because the first two groups with the highest number of words were all the girls. Kinda pitied the boys who worked really hard too 😦 I mean, it must be frustrating to try their hardest and always lose out :/ If it were me, I might even give up on playing anymore games. And these boys were so enthusiastic! Sigh. Kesian pulak. :/

Oh, but I got really mad at one of the boys, Luqman. First of all, he didn’t want to cooperate. Absolutely refused to play. Then after that, was such a busybody to crowd around the table as I was calculating the results. Then he and some of the girls must have been quarreling about something or other, and I heard him say, “Fuck betul!

I was seriously shocked! So I called him, “LUQMAN, WHAT DID YOU SAY?”

And would you believe it? He completely ignored me. I am totally serious. He didn’t answer me at all and just…..walked away. I called him several times, yet he just plain ignored me. I was so mad, yet at the same time I didn’t want to get mad, especially with all the other students crowding around me >.<

When a friend called to him and said that Teacher (me) was calling him, he just answered, “Apasal?

He answered his friend, but he can’t answer me? >.<

I wish I could have just gone up to him and smacked him. ISH. So rude and disrespectful, and aside from that, uses offensive language. Ugh. Baru Form 1! @.@

Didn’t do much in 1 Best today cos there were just the boys. I took the time to do a PBS evaluation for one of the boys who was absent for the past two days. (Apparently, he went back to his hometown for a family emergency @.@)

Also, we had kawad practice today. Up till 5 something in the evening! Boy, am I tired! Granted, I wasn’t in charge of the training, but it was tiring nonetheless. :/ There are so many things more to settle for Rajawali House—costumes, formation, mascot etc. I wonder if we have enough time. Sports Day is this Saturday already! @.@

Anyway, I am exhausted. But will try to mark some books today 🙂 Somehow, my whole body is aching >.<

Sports practice tomorrow in the morning again, as we did last week. The students (and the teachers!) are gonna be tired out and restless/listless! Thank goodness I’m not teaching tomorrow! 😛

Day #71 – 25 June 2012

I had a simple lesson planned for 1 Best today—to write and make a simple get-well card! 😀

It’s part of their PBS evaluations, being able to write wishes or greetings. So the situation given is that a friend met with an accident and has a broken leg. They’re supposed to complete the get-well card in the worksheet. It just says:

Dear ___________,

I’m sorry to hear about your accident. I hope _____________________. Sincerely, __________.

So simple!

So I decided to discuss with them and come up with more sentences that they can write. For example, “I hope you get better soon/I hope you feel better soon/I hope your leg heals quickly/I hope you recover quickly.” Would you believe that one of the students, Sheikh, actually came up with the word “recover”? 😀 Really good!

Then another, Aina, asked if she could say something like, “Don’t do dangerous things on the road” (since the friend met with an accident). I thought it was a very good idea to add in possibly, some advice. Maybe, “Next time, you should be more careful/You should not be so careless next time.” Which is great! 🙂

Then finally, they should end with something like, “I hope to see you in school soon!” I saw some writing, “I miss you!” as if it were a real classmate! xD

After they were done filling in the blanks, I decided to add something into the lesson. I thought it would be nice for them to make actual get-well cards. I bought coloured paper, got them cut into halves and gave each student one piece. Then they would copy the message that we had discussed earlier, into the card and decorate/design it however they like.

Wow, they seemed to really get into it! 😀

As I walked around the class, there were some very interesting designs, and some who were very creative! Some, you could see, were really trying very hard and putting in a lot of effort into making the card—even Nash! 😛 I was pleasantly surprised. Maybe I need to do more of these hands-on activities with them. They don’t seem to like writing/reading tasks. Maybe more of these arts+crafts thing.

Too bad it’s only during the last 2 weeks that I notice, and have more time to do these kinds of things :/

Anyway, initially, I had planned making the actual get-well cards as a just-for-fun kind of thing. But seeing some of their really creative and awesome cards, I thought it would be good for them to hand their self-designed cards in to put into their PBS files. Wouldn’t that be great to show as evidence of their work? 😀

Of course, they don’t have PBS files yet, and so I’ve been keeping all the worksheets they’ve done so far on my desk. (I have only half of my table space left to do work on =.=) But I guess I can keep their cards and inform Pn. Shahril before I leave so they can put all their lovely masterpieces into their files 🙂

Here are some of the masterpieces! 😀

Remember I mentioned that 1 Buck is kinda behind 1 Best in the PBS department?

Well, it just got worse after today :/

I had one period with them today, and that was disrupted because of the photo-taking sessions for the school magazine >.<

Firstly, they were late. I waited for about 15 minutes for them to come back to the classroom from the library. Apparently Pn. Sa’adiah made them stay back to finish their projects. I was a little unhappy about that. Was it fair that she take up my time with the students by (a) making them walk allllll the way from the library to get back to the classroom and not even letting them off early to account for that, and (b) that she make them stay back to finish their project when it was well into MY time already.

It’s completely unfair! >.<

I already only have one precious period with them that I was hoping to use to finish up the last PBS evaluation—which was supposed to be a piece of cake! They’re taking up too much time! @.@

Then when they finally started to trickle into class, I was called to take a photo with the Choral Speakers for the school magazine.

When I came back, I had what, 5 minutes left of my lesson?


I don’t know if it’s just me, or this school has just toooooo many programs that affect the T&L in the classroom :/ And I can tell you for a fact that the students are just delighted by that, really! They’d like nothing better than to do nothing but wander around the entire school day! @.@

Anyway, with the few minutes I had left, I only managed to get a few of the students to do their PBS evaluations. I seriously could have done more if some of them didn’t ummm and aahhhh over they style they had drawn from the lots >.<

I am seriously reconsidering. If I keep this up, they are gonna take FOREVER to finish their PBS evaluations. And with 1 Best soooo far ahead of them too! =.= But if I remove that element, it’s gonna get boring. What’s more, it won’t be fair to the others who have gone before them and done it. Right? Unless I impose some time limit thing. But that would mean I need to make it a team effort, or award points, in order for the time limit to have any effect. But that’s gonna take up time too. ARGH. What to do?

Maybe I’ll really just impose a time limit. And only 2 chances to draw lots. That’s it. With 1 Best’s period unaffected today, they are even more ahead of 1 Buck now. @.@

You must be thinking, So what’s the big deal if 1 Best is ahead? 

Well, it only makes it a weeeeee little bit easier if they were at the same pace, so it’s easier to plan lessons for the week and write my lesson plans too. But then again, it’s going to be for just another 2 weeks. So I guess I shouldn’t have to worry so much about that! 🙂

I realized today that students can be really tooooo shy. And I can be a little impatient. Hm. What happened to all my patience? I must have used it all up. :/

Day #70 – 22 June 2012

I was expecting a boring class with 1 Best today. And frankly, I have to admit that I am quite biased against 1 Best already. After four days of shouting at them and getting upset, I really didn’t feel like entering their class again today.

Still, I thought I would just keep it simple and finish up the third PBS evaluation for Band 1. A few pairs had already come forward to present their dialogues, and they were quite good. So, 10+ pairs to go. Should be alright now, wouldn’t it?

Managed to finish up the rest of the pairs. Some did very well, with very good intonation. Some had their strengths in their clarity. I always feel that if you speak just a liiiiiittle slower, not rushed, you are always clearer with your words. You don’t swallow your words as much. Which is good 🙂

For those I was not very satisfied with, I made them try again and also gave them some advice on how to do better. Hopefully, they’ll remember these things and apply them in real life. (But somehow, I doubt it. Maybe I am just too skeptical about the effectiveness of this entire PBS thing >.<)

Only Fathi and Nash were a little too playful. They kept giggling and laughing at the front that I was beginning to get annoyed. Why is everything a joke to them? :/Anyway, I made them do it over and over until they got it right. And honestly, they weren’t too bad, really. They just need to set their mind to it and focus, and take it seriously. Sigh. These kids. =.=

Anyway, I didn’t really expect to finish all the pairs with almost 45 minutes to spare! @.@

Thankfully, I had initially planned to teach them a song today. So I had the lyrics all photocopied and ready for them, and I already had the song file in my computer.

So I excused myself to get my laptop and borrow Sun’s speakers, just for a few minutes. I practically ran because I was afraid to leave my class unattended, even if it was a few minutes. But I made sure to give a stern warning that whoever leaves the class in my absence would be sent to Mr. Zaidi, the PK HEM.

Made it back to the classroom with no mishaps occurring while I was away. Phew! 😛

I chose Missing Piece by David Choi because it was a song that had a very simple melody and even simple lyrics, which would make it easy for the students to understand 🙂 Besides, this song was one of the songs in the soundtrack for the video My Generasi that I showed the class some time back. So it would be something they have heard a little bit of 🙂

I did a listen-and-fill-in-the-blanks exercise with them. I gave them lyrics with missing words and asked them to listen to the song carefully so they could fill them in as they hear the words.

Surprisingly, they seemed to enjoy the activity! They asked me to repeat the song so they could have another chance at filling in whatever words they couldn’t catch. In the end, I played the song 3 times for them 🙂

They were quite good, some of them. Managed to catch all but maybe one or two words 😛 And even before then, I had already noticed a few of them singing along to the music. These kids can catch melodies really fast! 😀 Even Nash, surprisingly, was good 😛 I even heard Fadhli, one of the weakest in the class, singing a line or two. I teased him, saying he could really sing, and he got so shy it was so adorable! xD

Then we discussed the lyrics, I explained some vocabulary and the meaning of the song as well 🙂 Then we sang the song together for a few more times! 😀

They really enjoyed the song, and I enjoyed singing with them 😀

I am really grateful for today. After almost a week of scolding them, I feel like I’ve found a good place with them once again. I don’t want to hope too much, but I really do hope that this will continue for my final two weeks with them. I want to leave happy, and satisfied. And I hope that they would be sad to see me go. Cos wouldn’t that mean that I’ve impacted their young lives in some way or other? 🙂

Thank you, God, for a good day today. May the next couple of weeks be filled with good days like this one!



p.s: I woke up with a swollen eye today (I think some stupid insect bit me! >.<) so I wore shades to class because I didn’t want the students to see me with my swollen left eye and no eyeliner =.= haha~ Of course, I got laughed at by 1 Buck, and teased in 1 Best. But they said I looked kinda cool, so that’s cool 😉

Today would be my first Friday where I have four periods with my two classes—back-to-back @.@

Previously, I only had 1 Buck during the last two periods on Fridays. Now, I’ll have 1 Buck after recess, then 1 Best for the last two periods instead.

However, today, the Muslim students had a program for Israk and Mikraj. All of them had to assemble at the hall. We were already informed about it yesterday, and that the program would go on the entire morning. So classes would only resume after recess. Which is perfect for me, seeing as my four periods are all after recess 🙂

So it was pretty quiet in the staff room this morning. The few non-Muslim teachers were just hanging out in the staff room, doing our work and sharing tidbits 😉

Anyway, I took the chance to work on my thesis (well, actually, it’s academic exercise, but thesis is much shorter to say, and to type =.=). I was done with all my corrections; now I’m doing a careful final once-through to edit my work and clean up any loose ends. Hope everything goes well and I can be done by next week! *fingers crossed*

Well, unfortunately, when 9.35 am came along, students were still not back from the hall yet! I was getting a little antsy, because it was 1 Buck’s period, and they were quite far behind 1 Best in terms of the PBS evaluations. Losing 1 Buck’s time would push them further back! I didn’t want that, because I was hoping that, now their lessons are synchronized (both classes on Mondays, Thursdays and Fridays) I would be able to teach them at the same pace. Easier for me lar, haha~

But the students only came back at 10.00 am! Oh, dear. So I could only enter at 10.15 am, meaning that I lost one entire period with 1 Buck 😦 How are they gonna catch up, now? T.T

Anyway, I immediately started them on the Introduce Yourself PBS evaluation. But after the explanation and everything, we didn’t really manage to get everyone to complete the task. There wasn’t enough time. >.<

This is the lesson where, they would introduce their name and where they’re from. Very simple. But it was too simple….and kind boring. So I added the “draw lots” element, where they would draw lots to see what “style” they would be doing their introduction in—just to make things interesting. 😉 For example, if they got “Crazy”, then they’d have to introduce themselves in a CRAZY manner! xD Only 1 of the 12 lots is “Normal” 😛

Actually, due to the lack of time, I was considering removing the “draw lots” element completely. Just make them come in front, say their name and where they’re from, and that’s it. It would certainly take up less time, and I would most probably be able to finish this task with them much much faster. Then we could move on and possibly catch up with 1 Best.

However, I felt it would be a shame for them to miss out on this activity. 1 Best seemed to enjoy it, although they got a little too restless for me to handle. But if I removed that part of the activity, then it would be just too boring, wouldn’t it? I would be bored, and the students would be bored. :/

So, in the end, at the risk of 1 Buck being wayyyyy behind 1 Best when I finish my practicum and pass them over to their respective teachers, I decided to stick with my initial lesson plan. I just hoped that they would find it enjoyable and that I didn’t make the wrong choice.

Well, I did think to myself, “Why the rush?” It seems like I’m trying to rush through Bands 1 and 2 (cause I think that’s all the time that I would have for). But I wonder, why do I need to rush through it? What’s the point, if students don’t learn much, or don’t get to enjoy much?

Maybe I should take my time. Don’t worry so much if I can’t finish doing the evaluations for a task in one lesson. Just allow them to take their time, and allow myself to slow down. Maybe then, both myself and the students can learn something from one another 🙂

Plus, I’m leaving soon. I don’t want to RUSH through my last few weeks. I want to enjoy myself too 😀

1 Buck was cooperative, and they were laughing out loud when some of their friends got “Old Man” and “Sick”. But it is certainly taking up more time, though, since it involves some “acting” skills as well :/ Still, I know we have some rather talented “actors” in the class, so this should be fun 😛

I’ll have to continue this next week, unfortunately. Hopefully, it won’t lose its appeal too quickly :/


p.s: I woke up with a swollen eye today (I think some stupid insect bit me! >.<) so I wore shades to class because I didn’t want the students to see me with my swollen left eye and no eyeliner =.= haha~ Of course, I got laughed at by 1 Buck, and teased in 1 Best. But they said I looked kinda cool, so that’s cool ;)


Day #69 – 21 June 2012

Today, I was going back and forth between keeping to my lesson plan, or making a last minute change for 1 Buck.

It was supposed to be the Literature lesson that I did with 1 Best that was such a disaster because the students were restless and bored with the lesson.

I had planned to do a simple silent reading-discuss-d0 exercises lesson with them, chapter by chapter. I want them to read silently and try to understand, then we’ll discuss by me asking them questions and testing their understanding, then doing the exercises in the textbook. However, these steps are repeated as we go along each chapter, so it could get a little routine and boring. But I felt that there were benefits to this routine, one of which, being that they are each given time to silently read and understand first, which is important.

However, it was quite a disaster in 1 Best. So I was thinking of changing it up a little. Make each group work on a chapter, then get them to present in front of the class to the rest. It’ll definitely give them something to do. However, I think that is a little too high-level, even for 1 Buck. They would be pretty lost as to what to present without a structure. I supposed I could give them one, but it is difficult to form one standard one because each chapter talks about different things. Unless I do a chapter per lesson. But I can’t be spending 2 periods on just one chapter, could I? 12 weeks! They’ll never finish then! @.@

So, in the end, I decided to stick to the lesson plan. I was also curious to see if it really was my methods, or the students that caused the lesson in 1 Best to be a disaster.

It went quite alright, I think.

Sure there were one or two who weren’t paying attention. But then again, they were often caught not paying attention anyway. But comparatively, 1 Buck was more responsive and cooperative. They tried even though they gave wrong answers. But for me, even when you give wrong answers, it still means you’re trying. And I could always tease them and get the class to loosen up.

It’s when you don’t respond to my questions and talk about other things that really gets me annoyed >.<

Lesson went relatively well, I think. Not as bad as with 1 Best, for sure.

I may, however, choose to change things up a bit. Maybe go a little slower; do two chapters per lesson instead of 3.

btw, Don’t think it’s too much for a double period lesson. First thing, it’s a GRAPHIC novel (read: comic) and each chapter is a mere 4 small-book pages with lots of pictures and few words. Which is why I planned 3 chapters in 1 hour and 20 minutes. Including discussion and some exercises.

Not too bad class today. Thankfully. So obviously, I cannot do the same thing for 1 Best then. I must do it differently, but am not sure how. :/ Will try to figure it out by this weekend so I can prepare next week’s lesson plans. ARGH. Quite a lot of things to do. I have to send my thesis to be bound soon, as well! @.@

Finished up the 10 who were not able to complete theirs yesterday. Was slightly better today.

However, I was not very happy with the delay because, since there was sports again in the morning, my 2 period lesson was reduced to a one-hour one. So I have even less time for today’s lesson proper, even more so with the continuation of yesterday’s lesson at the beginning of today’s lesson. So, in the end, I had only about less than half an hour for today’s lesson.

After explaining what they were supposed to do for this PBS evaluation, I actually went through the dialogue with them and demonstrated how to pronounce certain words clearly, and the right intonation to go with them. I made them repeat after me, as well.

But, as usual, there were some paying attention, some not :/

I got angry with them again, because they were restless and giving problems every few minutes. You scold one, another one does something else. You scold that one, and another one does another thing! >.< It’s maddening and exhausting! T.T

They can just walk from one end of the class to the other while you’re right in front straining your voice to explain things to them. When you question them, they just answer, simply, “Dia panggil saya.”


Your friend calls you and you’re supposed to do what he says? What about what say? No walking around during the lesson! Why don’t YOU listen to THAT?

And just after I got that boy to sit down, another just gets up and does the exact same thing.

OMG, what is happening?! I am so tired of scolding. Or am I just supposed to close one eye and allow all these things to go on in my classroom? What? Seriously, what am I supposed to do? >.<

It is so difficult to control this class. In the midst of my explanation on the PBS evaluation, I can hear so much of talking and whispering and giggles that it’s realllyyyyy hard to concentrate. So I started scolding, and would you believe it? I could still hear talking in the background. So I really SHOUTED this time, just so I can hear the silence—to know that it’s actually possible to be this quiet, but that the students are just plain disobedient.


And Aswad. Gosh, Aswad. I don’t know what to do with him anymore. He’s a smart mouth, a chatterbox, a clown, and he ENJOYS the attention he gets. The class LOVES him. They think he’s freakin’ hilarious.

Well, let me break it to you, Aswad. You’re one of the rudest, most disrespectful, annoying, smart aleck rascals I have ever met. Yes, I admit that you are funny sometimes, but that does not mean you can get away with doing anything just to earn the laughs and approval of your classmates. You make me soooooo mad I wish I could just give you one big WHACK! on the head and make you see what a fool you’re being in my classroom.

I realize that he’s cooperative only when he wants to be. Then, the rest of the time he just says and does whatever he wants. He’s always ready with a comment after anything and everything that you say, just to make the class laugh. It’s not that I don’t allow laughter in my classroom (hello, sometimes make jokes for them to laugh at) but when I’m serious, please be serious. Especially since I’ve already given prior warning and instructions. FOLLOW THEM. Don’t just do whatever you want because you think it’s funny.

For example, for today’s PBS, I have to evaluate them on their ability to “read texts aloud with the proper pronunciation and intonation”. They were given a dialogue and asked to work in pairs. Now, I had already instructed the class that they are allowed to change the names of the students in the dialogue—Osman and Wong—to their own, but for everything else, they need to retain them because, as it says on the worksheet, I have to evaluate their ability to read the text aloud. I don’t really want spontaneous dialogues or their own original lines, because then, I will not be able to evaluate their ability to read texts aloud. When they create their own, they’ll be making grammar errors etc. which I do not want. So I told the class: change the names, but not anything else.

Of course, our dear Aswad thought it would be funny to just add things in. He read out, “I’m from Bandar Baru Bangi, Selangor” when there was clearly no “Selangor” in the text.

I understand it was a small addition. But I really disliked the fact that he was not taking the entire presentation seriously and that he just had to defy me and not follow instructions when I specifically said not to change any part of the text besides the names.

I made him re-do his part and said that I was not going to pass him until he took this seriously.

ARGH. I am really so angry with this boy! >.<

I am upset with the entire class, actually.  Every single lesson, even though I come in, take a deep breathe, and start anew, they manage to make me angry EVERY single lesson. Four days this week already, including today. >.<

I don’t feel like entering this class anymore.

I wish I could do that. 😦