Today is a Saturday, and I am back in Seremban, home sweet home.
But nowadays, every time I come back, which is about once every two weeks now because I’m so busy with school, I bring my work back with me.
And only recently, the turn in of books from the students has been increasing—more students are handing in their books to me! I’m sure it’s truly thanks to Nabihah, my English monitor for 1 Best, and my threatening-to-write-their-names-in-the-discipline-misconduct-forms tactic for 1 Buck.
Although I am happy with the better turn in of books, it also means that I have more books to mark! @.@ And suddenly, I’m realizing that marking is a LOT of hard work! Especially if the students are only handing in their books for the first time since I taught them—there’s so much to mark! If they have been regularly handing in their books, I usually don’t have more than 3 handouts or activities to check in their books. But imagine four weeks’ worth of work in one go! @.@
It has been taking up all my time after school, after dinner. I mark until I feel like I am literally falling asleep as I check their books! My eyes are closing, but I force myself to finish marking them because I want to return the books to the students as soon as possible. I guess it’s a blessing that 1 Best’s work will be marked during the week and returned to them by Friday, while 1 Buck’s work can be marked during the weekend and returned to them at the beginning of the week. So I have two “shifts” of marking, so to speak. 🙂
However, I was marking 1 Buck’s journals last night and guess what I discovered.
At least 6 boys who copied the journal entries from other classmates.
Are you serious? Copying journal entries? How can you copy journal entries? Everybody’s experience is different! And you know what makes me mad the most? That they think I’d be STUPID enough not to notice!
Did they think that I don’t read their friends’ journals? That I just skimmed and scanned and wrote a random Good job! or Keep it up! for fun? That I don’t take my work seriously, and that I don’t care about the quality of their work, as long as it’s handed in? Did they think I was STUPID and wouldn’t know?
I need to take a deep, deep breath, just to stop myself from wanting to strangle them the next time I see them! >.<
I am just really, really disappointed. And hurt. I don’t know why I get so personal in these things. I’m sure that’s just their general attitude, but I hate that they’re doing it in my class, my subject. How on earth is copying a friend’s journal entry going to help you improve your writing? Help you improve how you express yourself? >.<
I am at my wits’ end, trying to figure out how to handle these kids. At this point, I am really tempted to tell them to just forget it, that I didn’t want them in my class anymore, that if they just aren’t interested in learning, they can just leave my class and I don’t care. I won’t care. ANYMORE.
But I can’t. 😦
I still don’t know what to do, though. I want to talk to them again, but I already have, once. After the news report incident, and they still did…….this. I think I will ask them to come see me, and get them to admit they copied from other classmates (it was like detective work, trying to find out who copied from whom >.<) and make them write their own, even if it were just a few sentences. Maybe they were frightened by my asking them to write a page-long entry. Well, I’d rather they write a short simple entry, but from their own effort, than copy pages from someone else’s.
I’ll talk to them soon. Next week.
At this moment, I’m feeling really down, and frustrated, and upset. Is this how teaching will always be? That your students let you down, every time? T.T